Arts and Emotions

 Art is not a "thing", but a perception. Art can never be defined by a word or a sentence! You can find art in everything. People might see a person as witless if his way of art is enjoying nature. In reality, it is an art too. There is some form of art masked inside each of the living things which includes animals, birds, plants etc. Have you ever thought how birds fly in pattern when they are in flocks? Have you ever considered the way of how a plant or a flower twists its stem towards the sun, an art? If not, then do observe nature. There are abundant of things which you can learn from them. 

It was those times when I was a little girl who loved to draw and color all the possible places which I could including the wall, floor etc,. When I got my book and pencil for the first time, I enjoyed scribbling in it like other kids. The time when I went on a small vacation to a different place where my dad worked, I started seeing drawing in a different perspective. "What if I can portray myself as a princess and my parents as king and queen? And I can even keep it in a very small frame? That looks natural!" - This was my thought when I saw a small picture frame which is attached to a small clock which is foldable. It was golden in color and there were many inscription designs which looked absolutely brilliant. There were two frames, one on the front side and the other behind the clock. It looked like a book with just one page (which was the clock). I drew the pictures I intended to and placed it inside the frame. My parents loved my drawings and encouraged me. Then I drew lord Krishna standing beside his love, Radha who was sitting on a weighing scale which is a tradition in southern part of India, mainly in Kerala. The picture also portrayed the story of the above, where the weighing scale was balanced only when a single peacock feather was kept above all the other things on the other scale. I tried sketching a lot now and then. But I couldn't pursue this as an art due to personal reasons. 

Becoming an engineer or a doctor was the trend and I don't know anyone who pursued art during my high school days. But still, I started sketching people whom I had a crush on, random sketches etc along with some prose and poems. Though, I really loved the world of art, it did let me down. Though I liked my drawings, paintings and my poems, I really did feel nothing about it. I was not able to write or draw the things I really felt like writing and drawing. I felt a lot of obstructions between my heart and brain, which is why I could't express what I felt. 

My heart synched along with my brain again, during the unforgettable miserable days I went through which was just before my marriage. I fell in love with someone and the "love" made me discover the art which I thought was rusted long time back. 

The feeling of wanting to do something and not able to do it due to your situation is one of the biggest emotion which most of the people cannot escape from.  Hunting down this emotion on your own is the only way you can be yourself. If you want to be yourself, then focus your vision on the thing which you feel is right and "do it"!